lately

thoughts

everything that i feel and experience, i do it so intensely that it hurts me. my brain and my heart work synchronised and they manage to sabotage one another. i am helpless and drained and don't want to do anything other than rot in bed and sleep. i have a thousand of chores to accomplish and they sit there waiting for me to get up. and i badly need to get up.

i wish i can shut my thoughts for like a day or two so i can be normal again. i feel like i’m slowly turning insane.